Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Okay, back to work now.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
It occurred to me that I hadn't posted any pictures of my visit to Kentucky on Thanksgiving week. I apologize for the oversight. I actually didn't take too many pictures when I was "back home" simply because I was enjoying too much talking and visiting that I didn't want to take out the time to get the camera and take pictures. But, what few I have, I'll post here now.
Here we have my "adopted Momma" pretending to pick her nose, while my "adopted b-i-l" has no clue what she's doing. This was taken during the pickin' I went to with my adopted family. Looks like Tooz here is doin' some "pickin'" of her own! I had so much fun that day!!!!
This is Jamie sitting with his Great Uncle Alvin and Great Aunt Janet (my mom's brother and sister in law). They are the only relatives on my mom's side of the family with whom we stay in semi-regular contact.
And in celebration of soccer season being back in full swing, here we have an action shot of Jamie in a 3v3 soccer tournament a couple of weekends back. His team tied for third place in the tournament. Not too shabby, considering they played some teams older than them! Way to go, Jamie!
Monday, February 25, 2008
- Hooray! After two years on the waiting list, Jamie and I have an appointment to meet his potential big brother (from Big Brothers Big Sisters) tonight. Huzzah! Everybody pray that they hit it off and that his BB is a positive influence and helps Jamie's self-esteem.
- Just the other day, Jamie looked at me and said, "Am I ever going to have a Dad? Please don't tell me what you think I want to hear. I'd like the truth, please." OUCH! Not only was that some grown up words and tone, but it hurt to have to say "Honestly baby, I don't know. But I'm doing what I can right now, which - honestly - isn't much. Between work, school and keeping up the house, it's about all I can do to make sure my socks match every day, much less dating." He took it rather well, and thanked me for telling him the truth instead of sugarcoating things. When did my little boy get to be such a young man?
- It's amazing what a little motivation will do. Once I told Jamie that he could have a Nintendo DS Lite only if he started getting B's or above in reading, and had all A's and B's on his next report card, he has brought home fantastic grades. So now I've begun bidding on a Nintendo DS lite on eBay. The little stinker just needed the proper motivation to do better. Granted though, he won't actually get the DS until I get the report card with all A's and B's on it.
- Last but not least, my sincere apologies to all the people to whom I used to be able to speak to on a half-way regular basis over the telephone. Between work and school, my butt is being spanked (figuratively, of course) and it seems to be all I can do - as I previously mentioned - to leave the house each day with matching socks on. I promise to do lots of calling the week of spring break. Would you believe that not only is my school's spring break and Jamie's spring break the same, but I also have a holiday from work that Friday for Good Friday. Thank you! That will be a Jamie and mommy day, with no homework, no chores, just fun!
Love you all, now I gotta go!
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Big hugs and sugars to you all!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Basically, Rachel pointed out to me that the reason why I'm lonely and haven't been in a relationship in too long to count is because I've built such a thick wall around myself that no one can get in. No one. Even if I want them to, that wall is so thick that nobody has a chance to get to know me, and I don't give them a chance to know what kind of person I am, because I'm too chicken shit to tear down the wall and let anybody see me - you know, the real me. Not the sarcastic, scary-brained geek freak persona I put on to rebuff people.
Can we say "Ouch!"?
Yeah. Major ouch. But what hurts the most is that it's true. And what sucks the most is that the wall has been there so long, I don't even realize it's there half the time, much less remember how to take it back down again. I think I erected this wall somewhere around 1986, just after my sister died.
So, anyone with demolition experience out there want to suggest how I can tear this sucker down? Because I'm really tired of the wall, and I'm really tired of having the real me tucked away behind this bitchy persona I don't even really like all that much.